Thursday, October 9

was supposed to have that BESTFRIEND's raya outing tomorrow, but it was canceled again for the second time in 2 years.
effing pissed and making me to realise something.
i would not disclose this here. inappropriate.
but still, making yourself free for only a day. is that so hard?
no planning after this anymore. seriously sick of it.



passed the first stage, and now waiting for the next stage in a month and a half time.


im disturbed.
life is ruthless.
life is unfair.
why couldn't i get that treatment too.
i know i have to understand. but it is just to hurt to understand.
so silly, i wouldn't wanna go to your house this Eid.
if i was able to have a choice, i would choose to stay far away and not be related to any from your ancestry line but only to know you. Only you.
life would be good then.
hopefully i can be that tolerant and patience girl that ive longed to be.
only god knows.


life is tougher on the other side and grass is not always greener on the other line.