due to a high demand for an update from me,
hence im updating about my life now..
firstly,still sad over the gone of beloved grandma..god bless you nenek.
then,err...holiday-ing ryte now.......yehooo!!haha
but still have to work to keep my income strong..hurhur..
next,boyf just took out his bike last thurs..
nice..hee
err next,
well nothing much...
just leading my life the way it is like usual..
and yeah..
tats all...
hee..
ciao!

In memories of grandma from 1942-22.08.2007
I shall always remember you..
And I missed you real much
And I missed those times where we were having fun and u always poke me to make me melatar..
You were the one who im close to
Remember the time where we need to take your blood test and you endure the pain of the poking needles..

Oh my god..im totally shocked and did not expect you to be gone so fast…
Maybe that’s what ALLAH wants to show to us all the human being the greatest of him..
This time you were happy and the next you were gone…
well thats life and we have to accept it..

I just pray and hoping that you will be put among those who are good in a place called HEAVEN.and may your soul be blessed..
And forever will be in my heart remembering you..
And together to all my muslims friends who may have read this,may we together sedekahkn AL-FATIHAH semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.thank you.amin ya ra-abaal-alamin.

oh yeah...
had a superduper fun on my 17th birthday..
thanks ya'll for all the birthday wishes..
love ya'll loads!!

started with 14 august.
my beloved dudettes in class surprised me.
a birthday necklace from emma.so lawa laa....
a birthday baby tigger from kak sophia.so cute la..
haha...
seriously didnt expect it la..
but seriously thanks aloott..
but for the rest who wishes me,,seriously,i do remember and always cherish ya'll as my friends.


next would be on the 15th itself..
finally turn 17 and GOING to 18.haha
went out wit boify..
jalan2..
he gave me a watch and it was like so lawa laa..
haha
*blush2
seriously,,after the guessing and pissing off from the guessing,
the answer have been out.hee..
and after that headed to breeks for a meal..
and pictures are ought to be uploaded..
just wait la kaes..
hee..



totaly superb happened tis tyme for birthday..
new friends,new surroundings..new chapter of life...
and tis keypad of tiz laptop ryte..
alamak..
who knows how to fix the buttons(whatever it called laa) coz my fullstop button/key terkeluar laa..fark ar..
how to fix back siak?
pissed2

watched RUSH HOUR 3 with boyf just now.
decided to went to AMK hub instead as today was the NATIONAL DAY of Singapore and we knew that we would suffer in the crowdedness of peeps in town.
btw..HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!FOR TURNING .........errr..how old eh?
okae whatever la eh..
well this movie was not disappointing after all like since RUSH HOUR 1.(like duhh)
hilarious and fun for a casual watching..

wanna watch License To Wed plak la...
its on the 16th..
hurhur..
after a year older in this world.
yefooo!!!
birthday coming la seyy!!
haha..
fyi people!
im free okae for tat day!!
wakakaa....

okae 2 things happen..
first lets talk about yesterdae..
last nite was Bs fren's berdae..
n i forgot the name of that person..hee
well happie berdae then..
it was fun eating at LauPasat..
then headed to esplanade thinking that we could chill after eating..
but however due to the SATURDAY(hate that!) mood and also the baybeats going on..
it was darn crowded la sey..
with minahs and mats..like WADEVA laa eh..
irritating jerr..
pandang2jeling2stare2..like what the fuck laa..
irritating bunch..get a life can?
haha..
chill around dere and then headed home..and sleep..(which is SO not enough)






and today..
was Kendarats day..
it was so tiring and i felt like just after working..
darn tired that i wanna sleep.hees.
oh yarh,emma did sang just now..
the elegi sepi song..
and she sang it like the original singer did..
was so SEDAAAPPPPPPP laa..
sedap?no i meant,the voice..
have always been supporting you with your singing ouhkae..
bravo to emma..
so people.lets give a clap to my dearest emma here for the courage to sing..
haha..
then went lepakings with my dearest darlinks..raudha and iqah.
btw,thanks dha for agreeing to the kendarat..haha
okae2..
hands too tired to type.
so ciao!
gud nite people!

Its not always about u huh?
It seems that u don’t care bout what I feel.
Its not about me being jumping to a conclusion.
But this is what I felt.
Ya, truth hurts. but the truth is what hurts me now.
I was alone in the toilet.worst still,I cried..
Nobody knows,nobody cares.
U just didn’t bother to care huh?
Okae fine,I understood.
Go with them for all u want.
Im not asking for all your BLOODY FARKIN time to be spent on me.
I don’t BLOODY FARKIN care..no,actually I care.
It just you u don’t realise it YET.
U went blind.with all your farking world.
I was like ur puppet huh?
Its okae.then you can be my puppeteer.u are free to dump me wherever you want when u don’t need me.
U claimed that u got a feelings too?
What about me?its clear that im just a puppet who is so useless and have no FARKIN sense of feelings huh?

Thanks for the downess I felt.
Thanks for the tears ive shed.
Thanks for making me feel unimportant.
Thanks la eh.i don deserve your world.i long knew.
Im backing my feet out ryte now.

And if u think that this was all my PMS thingy..
U completely wrong.no..its not completely wrong..
Its fucking bloody shit completely wrong.
U don’t have to be sorry because Im not asking for any forgiveness or whatever shit.
I just need an understanding of the whole thing.
If u think that im selfish,ignorance,ckp siket sensitive…or whatsoeverunamedit
Im okay with it.
U have the whole freedom of speech,feelings on the world..
Just continue dumping me anywhere.
Its not like I owe you my life.

This was what I felt. and I think its much more worst than the hurt u felt when u were being treated like that .i just seek for an understanding. not another feelings of being a puppet in YOUR WORLD.

okae back from clubbin..oopppsss..nope2..partying i meant..haha
last nite was the JUMP party at RP..
the start was so like..err..WHATEVER!!
but towards the end is where we have been waiting for..
all kinds of songs,all kinds of people,all kinds of moves
that was so much fun..
"DROP IT LIKE ITS HOT"
that was a worth of a poly time spent with:

1. emma
2. shirin
3. myra
4. zilah
5. keith
6. yatt
7. raju
8. lala

its fun,fun,fun time..
and im having my aching moment.feet was so aching.
thanks to the shoe i wear la eh..
wheeeeeeeeeee~
chalo beitey!