Hari raya was a blast.
enjoyed the food right from the start.
all in all.
it was a total superb experience.
but, green packet started to lessen nowadays eh.
thats the reason i wanna stay young forever.

and the next reason that made this raya a special one is that,
i get to see a smile that i had longed for and everything that i thought, overturned for the better.
relieved and speechless.


and today,
babyboo bought me a BabyTaz eventhough i insisted on not spending that money on me anymore.
got mad but he explained, and it cooled me off and soothe everything.
Dearest god, what more could i ask for.
am really happy with life and be appreciative and grateful on what i have.
alhamdulillah. im grateful.
Thank you life. Thank you My love. Thank you friends. Thank you parents. Thank you ALLAH.

was supposed to have that BESTFRIEND's raya outing tomorrow, but it was canceled again for the second time in 2 years.
effing pissed and making me to realise something.
i would not disclose this here. inappropriate.
but still, making yourself free for only a day. is that so hard?
no planning after this anymore. seriously sick of it.



passed the first stage, and now waiting for the next stage in a month and a half time.


im disturbed.
life is ruthless.
life is unfair.
why couldn't i get that treatment too.
i know i have to understand. but it is just to hurt to understand.
so silly, i wouldn't wanna go to your house this Eid.
if i was able to have a choice, i would choose to stay far away and not be related to any from your ancestry line but only to know you. Only you.
life would be good then.
hopefully i can be that tolerant and patience girl that ive longed to be.
only god knows.


life is tougher on the other side and grass is not always greener on the other line.

Slamat Hari Raya to all the muslim friends.
the feeling of Eid is not hype up yet. or maybe it is just issnt there. for me. i guess.

okies..
have been longing to update about F1 but didnt get the chance to.
it was dead beat and tiring.
on the first day, i was super enthu and happy about this F1.
But it was just another draggy event when came to realise on the 2nd day.
my ears was polluted but every night was awesome.
different race, different people, different accident.
enjoyed the 3 nights but at the same time having the aching moments of my own.
i bet the beatness can last till now.
but it pays off really well though.