Thursday, May 29
its suddenly that i feel that, that somebody was so in with the past.
nahh.
shall not think about it.
its just a small thing and i don't wanna question and doubt on the trust.
i dont wanna think too much about it.
just suddenly i felt the sharp pinch in the heart.
problems with laptop.
feels like throwing it away and buying a new one.
just hope that money will drop from my ceiling so that i can grab it and buy a new one.
sigh...
Tuesday, May 27
baek ar wani..
congrats ar for being the first one to drop his bike.
asal la kau bodoh sgt.
Okae okae.
it was like this.
i tried hubby's bike just now.
and i did manage to move it. as in, make it move and ride even it was a short distance.
but the bad thing was,
the second try,
i was so stupid to forget to bring down the stand and started on it.
and THUMMPPPPHHH!!!!!!
i fell with the bike.
what the hell.
u guys dont try to laugh okae.
guilt covers all over me.
i cant stop thinking about it.
and ive learnt my lesson and ive made that promise not to touch your bike again.
if tompang, can.=) if ride, i have a bike-ophobia.
nevertheless, i received my lesson. and had a 'hump' on my head.(benjol la. whats in English uh?)
and i noe in front of me,
u may seems so calm about it.
but deep inside u just wanna shout and scream my head off.
i know u are hurt because of your bike. sial ar. first time jatoh. the worst thing was, it was from me.
and i know ure not fine.
but i have listed out the things that im going to repay back.1. pay back for the crooked balancer.2. wash your bike.3. tip in for the donnoe-what-cost.and i know there is no use crying over spill milk. but
I AM REALLY SORRY.really i am.
i hope u can forgive me.
i know that infront of me ure seems to be fine.
but deep inside i know what is running through.
emotions jumbled up. sadness. angst.
arghhh!!!
kenaper bodoh nah wani!
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dont laugh.
sitting here in class.
and i feel like breaking down.
i have no mood for school.
just dont feel it.
and u wanted me to smile.
smile and smile and smile.
i know things have been rough on your side.
and dont think life is perfect on mine.
i just dont understand why u msged me that way.
why?
as if im gonna ask that.
u can say what u want.
and u wanted me to smile.
smile when i dont feel.
what for if i were to smile unwillingly.
yarh yarh yarh.
smile is all u need.
and if thats what u really need most.
dont worry.
ull have it.
things are wrong with me.
i feel like crying here.
can u even understand that?
or anyone.
please.i wanna go home.
Monday, May 26
Hubby is now officially the tutor for my younger sister.yeay!haha.its not like i cant teach la okae!just lack of patience perhaps.and just looking at both of them studying and teaching at home,all i could say is,they look so cute!hahah!and mom was delighted that there is someone who are teaching my sis.im really glad that she's happy about this.and thanks hubby.for becoming the tutor for my sister.love you so much lar!!
Sunday, May 25
yeah babbby...
days were great.
bought my new helmet yesterday.
wanted it white. but settled on black instead. no stocks for white.
what a sad thing.
damm. i want the white one badly.
so i bought the evolution black one.
and then.
proceed to CP to meet my family.
and this time,
i bought a mp3 player for myself.
Ghee.and im now officially on debt with my dad.
i agreed to pay back installment.
i dont know why the sudden urge to buy this gadget.
but its cool.haha.
so there it is,
samsung t-10.
initially i wanted a touchscreen player.
but touchpad also okae mahh..
there it is..i chose the red one.
Hotness.yes i know.
Thursday, May 22
RJ for today:
Is it possible to have a net profit and a negative cash flow? Why?
what the hell.
how am i supposed to know how to answer this!
i know nothing shit about this topic.
accounts.
net profit.
cash flow.
just what the hell is that?!
couldnt u just give a simpler RJ like,
''what have you eat today? was it nice?''
kan senang..enough crap.
have to crack my brain.
nonsense.
Tuesday, May 20
feel like bloggin since ive got nothing to do right now.
hubby went to the anugerah band to support his brother (Rancour).
how i wished i could tag along.
but i cant. sigh.
went to the open house on sunday.
family had to reached there early because they wanted our help.
it was my aunty's mom open house.
and my mom dragged us along all the way there early in the morning.
and as expected. it was a 3 storey terrace house.
and god, i cant help it but to play with the stairs and kpo2 go look at the rooms.
and it was so beautifully done.
almost perfect i can say.
and later in that night, all the 8 of us cramped in a car just to send their friend off
to Pasir ris Park.
It was fun except for that ghost encounter that im still curious about.
then stop by at Changi Village to spot some hot stuffs while sending food to Cuzzy's girlfriend.
And monday.
was the treat that was promised for working so hard for the open house.
3 families went out and the treat was;
-congkak movie
-eating out
-bowling
and whats more to expect when 3 families comes together for an outing.
gosh..
and back home,
i was like zombie.
and things begin to turn out ugly last night.
i cried in my sleep just to think about it.
ive tried to prevent all this.
i was hoping when i could call, and could settle things out.
i was not being my usual self.
i gave in.i took it all in even though it bleeds me out.
I know i was harsh.
but nothing harsh could be compared to when being cut off just like that.
never would i will do it to anyone.
its not nice. not nice at all.
but thank god.
things back to start.
settled all this.
i hope.
obliterate all sadness and numbness.
when its already numb.
Saturday, May 17
Yesterday was good.
we celebrated our first year last night instead due to some reasons.
was fun though.
watched What happen in Vegas.
super funny that made the theater to be filled with laughter.
should watch it again.
apart from that,
the whole trip was a smooth one.
and i got tired.
i wonder why i always get tire out easily these days.
perhaps its from school.
perhaps im doing something which im not looking foward to.
perhaps im wrong.
perhaps i dont even know the answers to this.
Geting tired and sleepy has been an issue. to me. and to people around me.
im sorry. i couldnt spend more time.
Anyways,
some pictures.
as ive learnt in school that the use of visual aids can helps makes reader to not feel bored.
thus in order to not make my blog not a dry one,
here's some pics taken last night.
we're in Vegas
conclusion
Honey just created his first blog.whooshh..but one thing i dont understand is,why do people associate guys who owns a blog as gays?i dont understand.
Wednesday, May 14
Im superuberduper happy today.or should i put,HAZWANIs MOST HAPPIEST DAY!!im so loving today!
with all the love ones around me.
spread the love people!!
first-i have a very happening classmates (our clan) Gheee! who constantly brightened up my days in class.
next-i have boyfren who's always by myside even when im in school. (because we are in the same school.like duh..)
next-and today was the most happiest day ever coz i get to buy the things i have been wishing for since when im in my mom's womb.
ive bought rings for both of uslike again?because i was such a pathetic-careless-lady-who-misplaced-the-ring-and-ending-
up-crying-like-a-little-baby when i couldn't find it anywhere.and this time, a new one. And ill make sure ill apply the UHU glue around my finger so as not to loose it again.i bought my personal EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE.yeay!
like finally...
haha.
and thanks dad for paying me back the loss i have made by buying this thing.
well,uve promised me before that i will use your money to buy school stuff.
and so.
happy fathers day to my daddy!
(ok lame.) next
i bought a new mouse due to several complaints from people that i should have like throw away my mouse months ago. And its
green,very like apple. nice la pulak..
AND......................Boyfriend bought me a necklace without im expecting it.. (so everybody says ''Awwwww...'' thank you!)So sweet of u honey.i really love the necklace.like super alot larrr...so ok. one more time people. ''Awwwwwww....''and overall.
today is the most happiest day ever!
and im loving every single bit of it.
hubbys gift of love.
One year and going strong.
Friday, May 9
and today.
the shawl clan came to rock the shawl world.
another pictures are up.
credited by LEE.
and that was a quick one.
and the gifts.
so yarh,
today was Annie's last day.(actually aku tak heran pon.)
and new faci will be replacing her.
and the new faci really looks like super nyonya-ish.
well.
dont judge.because i may never noe.
skali correct.how?
bye mamasan!
=)))
clear your thoughts. u dont think i dont know.
meeting with my girls was yesterday.
gosh.
its been ages since i saw them and talk.
and we planned to meet up and chill around at the khatib area.
and i forget what it is called but i know its just in front of the stadium.
so hubby send me there because i meet them right after school.
the place was quite ok. full of serenity.
few pictures are taken as we totally enjoyed ourself even though theres not much to look or do.
and mostly, we talk and have those good old times back.
and now.
pictures time!
favourite
years of friendship
swing is loves.
distressing
distressing part II
and we stayed till night.
and hubby picked me up.
how sweet.
but i didnt really asked him to do that.
but thanks syg!
Monday, May 5
It's gonna be our first year in 13 days time.
im so excited about it.
well pretty much though.
eventhough i cant get a chance to celebrate it with you on the day itself.
but definitely i have to treasure those moments that we have shared.
through ups and downs.
laughters and tears.
ure the one who never fails to cheer me up.
care for me when im sick.
include me in your life.
even if things are not meant in our way.
we managed to overcome all odds.
start a new and eradicate all those terrible feelings and thoughts.
And when i need someone,
u are there.without me asking for it.
even if to a point when im lost and weak,
u didnt loose faith in me.
instead u made me stronger and constantly believing on me.
i appreciate those things that u have done to me.
never did i expected i would be in this for this long.
and being with you,
is all that matters.
never would i expect to be with someone who would really adores me and love me.
and u came. bringing the sun up again to my world.
no matter how bad we treated each other.
no matter how hurt we were till we fell apart.
no matter what,
i cant stop loving you.
and ill forever be loving and cherishing every moment we spend together.
the good and the bad times.
u are always my honey.
my bunney.
my hubby.
my baby.
my love.
my dd.
and my everything.
your unquestioning love,
has kept me alive and escaping me from the past.
and i love you NOOR HASIF.
no matter what.
.18052007.
Friday, May 2
credited: Naf
Im so in love with the picture.
weeks of school.
and loving the class.
loads of pictures were taken within a week itself.
goodness.
a closer gap between us.
love school.
hates all modules except Events Branding =)
thats all i can say for now.
have to shop for formal clothes before that stupid formal presentation day.
=))
ouh Btw, watched BESI MAN. (IRON MAN LA BEROK)=)
watched it with Hubby.
it was superBly made.
shiok sia. with the high quality of sound which makes me terpranjat berok sometimes2.
and confession to make...
i accidentally dozed off on the certain part of the movie.
hey wait eh.not because of boring.
ermm. yar okae.perhaps certain parts of it were slow that makes me bored.
But overall, GREAT movie to watch.
a RECOMMENDED movie.
and i love u baby.=)
