FutUre Love N the hEart breaKers

2008-11-07T14:04:00.005+08:00

moved.
(here)

Dear blogger,
Thanks for being there when i needed you.
Dont worry, i wont abandon you.
Im just letting you be dormant for awhile before i make u active back.
toodles people.

hugs and kisses.

2008-11-05T19:08:00.003+08:00

It has certainly be awhile since i last updated. gosh, too much things had happened lately. From getting all excited to getting all broken up. Life's tough. Well, we have to move on and not hanging on to the past. My life? has been good, like the usual. Just that girl who is leading her life with loves around her and constantly on the screen waiting for new episode from GG. Thanks to Nafisa who got me addicted. Love life? has been great. I hope. Things might be getting hard for both of us but i know we are learning from it. Have been not too hard up on boyfy's family side coz i feel that they are finally trying to open up to a new entrance in their family. And im grateful for that, for sure. The rest of it? Im keeping it a secret though. Tough love, sweet romance. How contradicting.

Planning for Ubin trip for this weekends. Oh, i hope it wil be a good one. Seriously honey, i cant stand the sweats. Getting all wet and dirty is so not me. However though, i still do wanna go and have this second experience with boyfy and bro and Julie. Just to have to make sure that ill have all those nessessary stuff close to me.

Seriously broke. Im guessing that i followed too closely to the recession that has been happening and that i got myself broke just before my pay gets in. Oh dear, it would be ages to wait for money getting in the bank. Goodness, please let big bucks fall from the sky and into my holed pocket.

And yes. I did an LJ account. Im still contemplating either to change to LJ instead. I dont know whats the benefits of this different mode. But one thing for sure, its neater in there than here.

2008-10-14T21:31:00.004+08:00

Hari raya was a blast.
enjoyed the food right from the start.
all in all.
it was a total superb experience.
but, green packet started to lessen nowadays eh.
thats the reason i wanna stay young forever.

and the next reason that made this raya a special one is that,
i get to see a smile that i had longed for and everything that i thought, overturned for the better.
relieved and speechless.

and today,
babyboo bought me a BabyTaz eventhough i insisted on not spending that money on me anymore.
got mad but he explained, and it cooled me off and soothe everything.
Dearest god, what more could i ask for.
am really happy with life and be appreciative and grateful on what i have.
alhamdulillah. im grateful.
Thank you life. Thank you My love. Thank you friends. Thank you parents. Thank you ALLAH.

2008-10-09T21:26:00.005+08:00

was supposed to have that BESTFRIEND's raya outing tomorrow, but it was canceled again for the second time in 2 years.
effing pissed and making me to realise something.
i would not disclose this here. inappropriate.
but still, making yourself free for only a day. is that so hard?
no planning after this anymore. seriously sick of it.

passed the first stage, and now waiting for the next stage in a month and a half time.

im disturbed.
life is ruthless.
life is unfair.
why couldn't i get that treatment too.
i know i have to understand. but it is just to hurt to understand.
so silly, i wouldn't wanna go to your house this Eid.
if i was able to have a choice, i would choose to stay far away and not be related to any from your ancestry line but only to know you. Only you.
life would be good then.
hopefully i can be that tolerant and patience girl that ive longed to be.
only god knows.

life is tougher on the other side and grass is not always greener on the other line.

2008-10-02T20:28:00.018+08:00

Slamat Hari Raya to all the muslim friends.
the feeling of Eid is not hype up yet. or maybe it is just issnt there. for me. i guess.

okies..
have been longing to update about F1 but didnt get the chance to.
it was dead beat and tiring.
on the first day, i was super enthu and happy about this F1.
But it was just another draggy event when came to realise on the 2nd day.
my ears was polluted but every night was awesome.
different race, different people, different accident.
enjoyed the 3 nights but at the same time having the aching moments of my own.
i bet the beatness can last till now.
but it pays off really well though.

2008-09-25T09:43:00.019+08:00

Heya people.
okae first thing first.
BTT- FAILED. so depressing. it was just a theory wani. ghee.

oreadie,
last night was awesome.
Meeting up with beloved girlfriends to break fast together.
been a long time since we get to like meet up and have a full reunion.
its was super awesome.
stories were updated.
played bunge api after that.
bunge api nowadays is so dissappointing!
eventhough there's whistling effect, but its just another piece of shit.
burnt my jeans and left a hole of the size of a ciggy but. how big was that. dammit.
but however so, time were great and this is one hell of my crazy bunch that i love to hang out with.
next meet up- Hari Raya outings! make yourself free babes!

hold on people.
there's a potential bitches in the class. dammit. not again.
kennzzz.....

2008-09-22T08:28:00.004+08:00

things have been rough.
i dont know whats the caused.
me myself dont know what it is.
i dont know whats the reasons that have been hurting me real bad.
time after time. again and again.
the same thing over again.
what is it?
i dont know.
it has been causing me all the gloomy faces. living in the own very world.
well. everyone is happy. cause Eid is coming.
well for me, i doubt.

but hopefully,
things change though just before raya.
hopefully.

picture: deviantart

2008-09-09T21:15:00.005+08:00

wohoooooo~
great start for school this semester.
hopefully, its not hard to maintain it.

good thing about this week was that,
not only i got that $100 tips from working.
i got to buy my RED psp.
have been aiming for this for a long time.
time lambat kan aku.
and gladly Hasif chipped in for this psp. thank you.
ghee. we will be sharing this psp.
i wonder how it will be. haha. how cute~..yikes.
but it certainly has boost up my excitement.
one wishlist has been ~~cancelled.~~
the next time would be your turn boyfriend.
start saving again...

9 days of fasting.
3 days have been valid for me.
more to go..
ZZzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz

2008-09-05T22:47:00.008+08:00

Prisoner on the inside.

well, issnt that bad after all.
hell yeah.
~~tired.~~ devastated.
im not hiding.

2008-09-03T20:55:00.002+08:00

holy month of ramadhan.
happy fasting y'all for those who like really really fasting. =)

well, school are on now.
and this time. its not much of an awkward feeling.
why?
i have the favourites in the class!
its funny how all 6 of us land ourselves in the same class for all the 5 days.
class is great. im sure it will be greater once each of us get to know with each other.
theres funny personalities though.
haha
im sure class this time would be fun. i hope.

im contemplating between maroon or white for raya this year.
trust me to think of raya when puasa only pass 3 days.

2008-08-16T19:37:00.004+08:00

heya people.
first of all. i would like to say my many thanks to those who wishes me a happy birthday.
from parent, to boyfriend, besties, friends and to those who i dont remember who.
thank you so much.

18 years of age.
nothing much changed. not underage. of course. haha.

celebration was fun.
15 august. with boyfriend.
a wonderful day spent indeed.
love u so much.

18 years of age.
im grateful. to have everyone whom i love and care about around me.

lastly,
im thankful. to god. for giving me the chance to live and grow for another year.

love y'all.

oh yeah baby.
enrolled myself.
have to wait. dammit. 13 october.

next up.
Chalet!, work, meeting up with girlfriends!
oh sweets.. i cant wait for all the excitements!
happy!

2008-08-10T10:43:00.008+08:00

9 august. Happy Birthday Singapore.
nothing much was done.
Hasif got his gig at *scape.
crowd was bad. perhaps due to the weather or the way they market this event.
no plans after performance. therefore, window shop at cineleisure.
finally found the braziliano praia. i want it so much.
or perhaps i should say, im desperate for it? haha.

soon after that, went to PS for a meal.
followed by Marina square to meet hasif's parent.
this is not the first time meeting them. second.
it does not change a single thing.
i could see fire and hatred in his mom's eyes when i salam her.
what did i do wrong?
am i that bad?
it hurt so badly that i couldn't manage to hold back my tears on the way home.
told myself, i need to be strong. but i just couldn't.
i dont understand why.
why am i so hated at.
i did not kill anyone in the family.
on that very moment, i felt like i ruined the family. everyone was so quiet.
god knows how i feel at that point of time.
he was disappointed on how it turned out.
me? hurt.very.

i was so delighted when i have that dream in my sleep.
but in reality, it is just the otherwise.so dark filled with angst.

but on the other hand, meeting with his mom taught me and made me realize something.
that i have a wonderful family.
i may be too complacent at times. but i'm grateful that i have my mom.
my mom has been encouraging and teaches me a lot in life.
the way this family accepted Hasif, is something i couldnt ask for more.
i wouldn't want mom to know about this rejection.
god knows how she will feel.
parents did not raised up their kids to let their kids being mock or being hated at from anyone.
grateful. im so grateful.

and if ever one time,your mom were to hate me forever, and if ever i was ask to leave u.
i will.
a mother love is prominent than anything else.
even though it is unfair. but i will have to respect her.
if that's makes her happy. as a hated human being, ill step down.
whatever that makes people happy.

to be with someone's parent, i loves my parents more.
even though the meeting was a disappointing one, it has teaches me a lot.
and thanks to this family that i know where to stand and made me realize a lot about my family.
RESPECT. is all i've longed for and is all i have left to offer.

time. all i need is time.
just hope time will change everything.
i need someone to guide me along. to be strong.

2008-08-05T21:45:00.006+08:00

alrighty. went seoul garden with E65M.
i know its kinda outdated to update about this.
it was last thursday btw. =)
one word. -FUN!

spokesperson.

the babes.

ill give it a pass.ghee

the end..home sweet home

its the last week of school.
yippeee...
im loving it.
holidays are coming.
ill be working my ass off.
bye school!

it was so much of a relieve to be able to sit down and talk with you just now.
after all those hurtful spat, im glad that we are still able to sit and still be looking at each other eyes with the warm love that we have for each other.

2008-07-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

changed the blog song.
most favourite Secondary school song.
woohhooooo!
back to the old days.
=)

2008-07-28T18:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday was uncle's departure to Indonesia.
and i tagged along reason was that its been a long time since i step my feet at the airport.
pretty much, alot have changed.
went to T3 and i totally love the sky train ^ ^
its like taking the typical LRT.
took some pictures.
and i looked like a retard in the pictures.

early morning long ride

dad and cuzzie

with mom. and ooh, i got cut!

she just loves to pose whenever the lens is on.

cuzzie.YPs. haha. im so like one.

and after airport, left for work.
boring~...

took annual leave for school today.
ill be clearing off my leave this week.
ooh, im so loving the last few weeks of school.

2008-07-25T18:53:00.002+08:00

I give up in my younger sister.
im not fucking going to elaborate further.

my back has been fucking giving me problems.
ache non stop since last night around the kidney area.
irritating shit. its making me to feel those nausea and sick feeling.
ive yet to know the reasons for this.
hope its not anything worse.

im so feeling worse right now.
pissed.

mood: fucking dont care and fucking cant be bothered.

2008-07-24T21:35:00.004+08:00

And so.
layout changed.
im getting lazy to beautify my blog.

anyways,
Developing Enterprise's 3rd presentation just now was uber fun.
class clash. everything seems to be in high school times.
i guess that's where class bonding surface.

well.
there was a girls talk yesterday.
where 6 girls sat and really talk about girls stuff.
i miss those times when i used to have it with my girls.
well. we ought to cover more out from each other from that session.
perhaps next time when nabilah is in. I bet it would be fun and ''thrilling''. =)

oh gosh.
PP is killing me.
ive yet to submit the report in few days time.
but not a single completion on each section.
i hate report writing. it is so Food N Nutrition in high school.
even then, my teacher was the one who helped me a lot in the report.
oh gosh. well everything changes.
it time to be independent now.

had to pull up my socks.
but it is just 2 weeks left of school.
guess its too late to focus on school.
Ghee.

2008-07-21T22:24:00.008+08:00

seriously, till now i cant find the suitable layout to change this blog skin.
i have to change it being for 2 reasons;
1) theres someone there, using the same skin as mine. kpo.
2) im already sick of this skin and i need something refreshing.

perhaps tomorrow i can find one. or maybe the day after tomorrow.or maybe next 3 days or 4 or 5 or 10...when i have the time.

hmmm.
have not been updating for quite a long time.
reasons being, plain lazy + nothing to wirte + no time + busy= no entries.

well.
nothing much have have been happening in my life.
only that school is left only with 3 weeks.
alot has to be done.
PP and CE.
both are utterly draggy and boring.
class have been great. as usual.
school have been improving.
me?
just continuing my laziness given that i have only 3 weeks left before term break.

apart from all this,
worked like crazy.
still feeling the beatness out of it.
needed more money.
money,money,money.
why cant they just drop out from the skies?

and cut my hair.
nothing much of change.
trimmed it. But damm auntie messed up my fringe and now i look like a kukoo.
but hey, hair grows. just have to live with it.

oh gosh.
seriously have to change the layout.
i dont know why im so troubled by it.
Ghee.

tomorrow, planning was to go watch movie.
Batman?
batman pon batman la.

ooh.
i really want that braziliano praia.
tsk!

life with you is like taking a roller coster ride after that moment.
<3

2008-07-05T16:42:00.003+08:00

well, nothing much really happened since the past week.
right now, sitting at home.
superuber bored. making me want to strangle myself up on this bed.
i really do wanna go out.
meet up with best friends.
but it seems that everyone is busy nowadays.
really hope for a meet up. like seriously.
theres alot to share. alot to tell.

oh shit.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
i really need to hold myself up.
felt like suffocated, struggled days by days.
i dont know why.

question for self:
"how much long can i be this understanding kid that u see now?''

looks like i have to endure.
fuck endurance.
whatever.

oooohhh.
cant wait for the chalet.
i bet it would be fun.

2008-06-23T13:29:00.013+08:00

Congratulation MBS(murder by ska) for winning the EP recording along with the other 5 bands.
told you, MBS can make it. =)

next up,
rushed ourselves to home club for the SKAPUNK gig.
it was fun. super skanky.
some pictures were ought to be taken.
anyways,some pictures to colour the blog. =)

1st band-mbs

and again

and he sang.

and again.

all for the duet...

Murder by ska.
Rancour

pics of the day

amin.. =))

2008-06-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

ill be gone forever.

2008-06-20T18:43:00.006+08:00

Round up for the week:
SUCKY

School has been rather sucky.
life has been rather bitchy.
i need FUN in my life.
no school for next week as it was the attachment week.
theres work tommorow
and those competition and gig that am going to attend on sunday.
and monday. working for that stupid water week.
super shag when it comes to monday.
its alright. just endure.
im just killing the days off.

and now.
fucking bored alone.
well,
i just think that
its happier for u to be around with your friends.
me? ill just be the trouble pussy maker for you.

alright alright.
i shall have some fun now
peace.

sialan

oh.i made the wrong move again!
note to self:
DONT RUSH, ASSHOLE!

2008-06-15T20:07:00.002+08:00

Father's day was spent playing bowling with family and uncles's family and Boyfy.
it was super fun and really felt the heatness.
and it was special as boyfy also came along and played.
after those tense muscle and aching joints, we headed off to CP to have our lunch.
well, its been a long time since i ate with my family outside.
and headed off to do some grocery shopping.
and.

HAPPY FATHER's DAY to my daddy.
love both mommy and daddy to the max!

well,
nothing much to say..
oh yarh,
just hopefully MBS can get through the next level in that audition.

and.
tommorow will be a proper school.
dammit.
im so missing last week!
where i could even hear the toad croaks and chill around and not much traffic going on in school.
and obviously,
im gonna miss the W1 class.dammit.after this i have to walk a thousand miles extra(estimated exaggerating assumption) to E6.

oh honey.
fuck school.

2008-06-10T21:15:00.008+08:00

i hope we are not trying to play pretender with each other.
pretending every moment together like theres nothing wrong.
deep in heart.
it slices deeply into each of ours.

Freedom of speech. i THINK i've got mine. do u have yours?

2008-06-08T22:03:00.006+08:00

enough is enough.
yes it was a stupid remark.
seiously, im not wrong to say that since u have proven it.
and u think that was way to hurtful for u.
but still. sorry i am.
dont have to absolve me. thats alright.
seems unfair to you?

think back.
bringing back past.
its ~~horrible~~ excruciating.
i know ive done tonnes of time hurting you which u think u dont deserve it.
yes its karma.
what u did. is what you get.
and im not sure right now if i am able to handle this.
i wanna run away.
but i cant. theres no much energy left for me to run far.
i choose to be situated dead.
anyone. just anyone. who thinks i deserve to live.
revive me.

2008-06-02T20:10:00.009+08:00

effin' HOT!
things heat up when MBS perform.
not being biased.but really, it was superb.
mosh and mosh and more mosh.
eventhough it was a small crowd.
but it was a remarkable one.
the dance we had, im treasuring it.

and im gonna be sick.
like really sick.
okay wani.
be strong. oh im so hating this feeling.

2008-05-29T23:59:00.004+08:00

its suddenly that i feel that, that somebody was so in with the past.
nahh.
shall not think about it.
its just a small thing and i don't wanna question and doubt on the trust.
i dont wanna think too much about it.
just suddenly i felt the sharp pinch in the heart.

problems with laptop.
feels like throwing it away and buying a new one.
just hope that money will drop from my ceiling so that i can grab it and buy a new one.

sigh...

2008-05-27T20:30:00.005+08:00

baek ar wani..
congrats ar for being the first one to drop his bike.
asal la kau bodoh sgt.

Okae okae.
it was like this.
i tried hubby's bike just now.
and i did manage to move it. as in, make it move and ride even it was a short distance.

but the bad thing was,
the second try,
i was so stupid to forget to bring down the stand and started on it.
and THUMMPPPPHHH!!!!!!
i fell with the bike.
what the hell.
u guys dont try to laugh okae.
guilt covers all over me.
i cant stop thinking about it.
and ive learnt my lesson and ive made that promise not to touch your bike again.
if tompang, can.=) if ride, i have a bike-ophobia.
nevertheless, i received my lesson. and had a 'hump' on my head.(benjol la. whats in English uh?)

and i noe in front of me,
u may seems so calm about it.
but deep inside u just wanna shout and scream my head off.
i know u are hurt because of your bike. sial ar. first time jatoh. the worst thing was, it was from me.
and i know ure not fine.
but i have listed out the things that im going to repay back.
1. pay back for the crooked balancer.
2. wash your bike.
3. tip in for the donnoe-what-cost.

and i know there is no use crying over spill milk. but
I AM REALLY SORRY.
really i am.
i hope u can forgive me.
i know that infront of me ure seems to be fine.
but deep inside i know what is running through.
emotions jumbled up. sadness. angst.
arghhh!!!
kenaper bodoh nah wani!

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dont laugh.

2008-05-27T09:57:00.004+08:00

sitting here in class.
and i feel like breaking down.
i have no mood for school.
just dont feel it.

and u wanted me to smile.
smile and smile and smile.
i know things have been rough on your side.
and dont think life is perfect on mine.
i just dont understand why u msged me that way.
why?
as if im gonna ask that.
u can say what u want.
and u wanted me to smile.
smile when i dont feel.
what for if i were to smile unwillingly.
yarh yarh yarh.
smile is all u need.
and if thats what u really need most.
dont worry.
ull have it.

things are wrong with me.
i feel like crying here.
can u even understand that?
or anyone.
please.i wanna go home.

2008-05-26T20:46:00.003+08:00

Hubby is now officially the tutor for my younger sister.
yeay!
haha.
its not like i cant teach la okae!
just lack of patience perhaps.
and just looking at both of them studying and teaching at home,
all i could say is,
they look so cute!
hahah!

and mom was delighted that there is someone who are teaching my sis.
im really glad that she's happy about this.

and thanks hubby.
for becoming the tutor for my sister.

love you so much lar!!

2008-05-25T13:01:00.003+08:00

yeah babbby...
days were great.
bought my new helmet yesterday.
wanted it white. but settled on black instead. no stocks for white.
what a sad thing.
damm. i want the white one badly.
so i bought the evolution black one.

and then.
proceed to CP to meet my family.
and this time,
i bought a mp3 player for myself.
Ghee.and im now officially on debt with my dad.
i agreed to pay back installment.
i dont know why the sudden urge to buy this gadget.
but its cool.haha.
so there it is,
samsung t-10.
initially i wanted a touchscreen player.
but touchpad also okae mahh..
there it is..i chose the red one.
Hotness.yes i know.

2008-05-22T20:19:00.003+08:00

RJ for today: Is it possible to have a net profit and a negative cash flow? Why?

what the hell.
how am i supposed to know how to answer this!
i know nothing shit about this topic.
accounts.
net profit.
cash flow.
just what the hell is that?!
couldnt u just give a simpler RJ like,
''what have you eat today? was it nice?''
kan senang..

enough crap.
have to crack my brain.
nonsense.

2008-05-20T19:48:00.003+08:00

feel like bloggin since ive got nothing to do right now.
hubby went to the anugerah band to support his brother (Rancour).
how i wished i could tag along.
but i cant. sigh.

went to the open house on sunday.
family had to reached there early because they wanted our help.
it was my aunty's mom open house.
and my mom dragged us along all the way there early in the morning.
and as expected. it was a 3 storey terrace house.
and god, i cant help it but to play with the stairs and kpo2 go look at the rooms.
and it was so beautifully done.
almost perfect i can say.
and later in that night, all the 8 of us cramped in a car just to send their friend off
to Pasir ris Park.
It was fun except for that ghost encounter that im still curious about.
then stop by at Changi Village to spot some hot stuffs while sending food to Cuzzy's girlfriend.

And monday.
was the treat that was promised for working so hard for the open house.
3 families went out and the treat was;
-congkak movie
-eating out
-bowling
and whats more to expect when 3 families comes together for an outing.
gosh..
and back home,
i was like zombie.

and things begin to turn out ugly last night.
i cried in my sleep just to think about it.
ive tried to prevent all this.
i was hoping when i could call, and could settle things out.
i was not being my usual self.
i gave in.i took it all in even though it bleeds me out.
I know i was harsh.
but nothing harsh could be compared to when being cut off just like that.
never would i will do it to anyone.
its not nice. not nice at all.

but thank god.
things back to start.
settled all this.
i hope.

obliterate all sadness and numbness.
when its already numb.

2008-05-17T13:53:00.013+08:00

Yesterday was good.

we celebrated our first year last night instead due to some reasons.
was fun though.
watched What happen in Vegas.
super funny that made the theater to be filled with laughter.
should watch it again.
apart from that,
the whole trip was a smooth one.
and i got tired.
i wonder why i always get tire out easily these days.
perhaps its from school.
perhaps im doing something which im not looking foward to.
perhaps im wrong.
perhaps i dont even know the answers to this.
Geting tired and sleepy has been an issue. to me. and to people around me.
im sorry. i couldnt spend more time.

Anyways,
some pictures.
as ive learnt in school that the use of visual aids can helps makes reader to not feel bored.
thus in order to not make my blog not a dry one,
here's some pics taken last night.

we're in Vegas

conclusion

Honey just created his first blog.
whooshh..
but one thing i dont understand is,
why do people associate guys who owns a blog as gays?
i dont understand.

2008-05-14T22:26:00.006+08:00

Im superuberduper happy today.
or should i put,
HAZWANIs MOST HAPPIEST DAY!!

im so loving today!
with all the love ones around me.
spread the love people!!

first-
i have a very happening classmates (our clan) Gheee! who constantly brightened up my days in class.
next-
i have boyfren who's always by myside even when im in school. (because we are in the same school.like duh..)
next-
and today was the most happiest day ever coz i get to buy the things i have been wishing for since when im in my mom's womb.

ive bought rings for both of us
like again?
because i was such a pathetic-careless-lady-who-misplaced-the-ring-and-ending-
up-crying-like-a-little-baby when i couldn't find it anywhere.
and this time, a new one. And ill make sure ill apply the UHU glue around my finger so as not to loose it again.

i bought my personal EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE.yeay!
like finally...
haha.
and thanks dad for paying me back the loss i have made by buying this thing.
well,uve promised me before that i will use your money to buy school stuff.
and so.
happy fathers day to my daddy!
(ok lame.) next
i bought a new mouse due to several complaints from people that i should have like throw away my mouse months ago. And its green,very like apple. nice la pulak..

AND......................
Boyfriend bought me a necklace without im expecting it.. (so everybody says ''Awwwww...'' thank you!)
So sweet of u honey.
i really love the necklace.like super alot larrr...
so ok. one more time people. ''Awwwwwww....''

and overall.
today is the most happiest day ever!
and im loving every single bit of it.

hubbys gift of love.

One year and going strong.

2008-05-09T20:24:00.009+08:00

and today.
the shawl clan came to rock the shawl world.
another pictures are up.
credited by LEE.
and that was a quick one.

annie's last day.

and the gifts.

so yarh,
today was Annie's last day.(actually aku tak heran pon.)
and new faci will be replacing her.
and the new faci really looks like super nyonya-ish.
well.
dont judge.because i may never noe.
skali correct.how?
bye mamasan!

=)))

clear your thoughts. u dont think i dont know.

2008-05-09T20:04:00.010+08:00

meeting with my girls was yesterday.
gosh.
its been ages since i saw them and talk.
and we planned to meet up and chill around at the khatib area.
and i forget what it is called but i know its just in front of the stadium.
so hubby send me there because i meet them right after school.
the place was quite ok. full of serenity.
few pictures are taken as we totally enjoyed ourself even though theres not much to look or do.
and mostly, we talk and have those good old times back.

and now.
pictures time!

favourite

years of friendship

swing is loves.

distressing

distressing part II

and we stayed till night.
and hubby picked me up.
how sweet.
but i didnt really asked him to do that.
but thanks syg!

2008-05-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

It's gonna be our first year in 13 days time.
im so excited about it.
well pretty much though.
eventhough i cant get a chance to celebrate it with you on the day itself.
but definitely i have to treasure those moments that we have shared.
through ups and downs.
laughters and tears.
ure the one who never fails to cheer me up.
care for me when im sick.
include me in your life.
even if things are not meant in our way.
we managed to overcome all odds.
start a new and eradicate all those terrible feelings and thoughts.
And when i need someone,
u are there.without me asking for it.
even if to a point when im lost and weak,
u didnt loose faith in me.
instead u made me stronger and constantly believing on me.
i appreciate those things that u have done to me.
never did i expected i would be in this for this long.
and being with you,
is all that matters.
never would i expect to be with someone who would really adores me and love me.
and u came. bringing the sun up again to my world.
no matter how bad we treated each other.
no matter how hurt we were till we fell apart.
no matter what,
i cant stop loving you.
and ill forever be loving and cherishing every moment we spend together.
the good and the bad times.
u are always my honey.
my bunney.
my hubby.
my baby.
my love.
my dd.
and my everything.

your unquestioning love,
has kept me alive and escaping me from the past.

and i love you NOOR HASIF.
no matter what.

.18052007.

2008-05-02T21:38:00.007+08:00

credited: Naf

Im so in love with the picture.
weeks of school.
and loving the class.
loads of pictures were taken within a week itself.
goodness.
a closer gap between us.
love school.
hates all modules except Events Branding =)
thats all i can say for now.
have to shop for formal clothes before that stupid formal presentation day.
=))

ouh Btw, watched BESI MAN. (IRON MAN LA BEROK)=)
watched it with Hubby.
it was superBly made.
shiok sia. with the high quality of sound which makes me terpranjat berok sometimes2.
and confession to make...
i accidentally dozed off on the certain part of the movie.
hey wait eh.not because of boring.
ermm. yar okae.perhaps certain parts of it were slow that makes me bored.
But overall, GREAT movie to watch.
a RECOMMENDED movie.

and i love u baby.=)

2008-04-23T08:55:00.002+08:00

yikes.
aku update la nie naf.

currently in class.
the STUPPIIIDDD law module.
woke up late.
lucky that i stay within woodlands itself. *ehem*

last nite was superuber superb and fun!
well,i got this rollerbladophobia.
and that was my first time rollerblading.
went to east cost.chop2 after taking pay.
and first few steps was a struggle and i cant stop cursing and swearing like fuck.
but later after few stumble and falling down,
i manage to get myself out from the BEGINNER'S COURT.
and i manage to like rollerblading along the pavement outside.
cool shit ar aku.
haha!
but seriously,with my age like this, its super embarrassed la ok.
especially stumbling infront of those cute kids (age range-5 to 1 1 FYI)
malu lar..
but heck cares!
i manage to prove myself that i can blade.
wahahah!
im cute?
i noe...

=)))

2008-04-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

i dont know.
but.is this going to bring us any further???
too much doubt is in my head.about us.

2008-04-15T09:45:00.002+08:00

its been a week of school.
today, tuesday.
still got a long way to go.
i love school now rather then year 1.
why?
because i get to like finally study what im really supposed to study since year 1!
Event management.cool kape.
all the things that im learning now has got to do with my course and im so loving it la can.
next up.my PP.
dammit.i have to submit my ideas by the end of the month.
but till now,satu haram aku tak tau nak biken ape.
gawd..
have to complete the stuuuuppiiidddd CE points by the end of year 2.
have to complete PP.
aiyayayaya...
tough la school.
but heck cares.
kater skola per.takan nak senang.

now.waiting for hubby for break.
lambat nyer..
my tummy is like, blasting those krak kruk krak kruk (krak kruk wak lu) sound lar..

2008-04-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

oh yeah.
tomorrow would be the first day of school.
year 2 man.
everything seems to be hard now.
nevermind la.
hee.
and gawd,
alot that i know got into Rp.
haha.
cool.

ouh and btw.
i know the reasons for my ''rashes'' on my hand.
which..
i cant tell..
ghee.
goosebumps.

and yarh.
its pointless u tell me that.
so what.
so what if that really happen.
so what.
does it makes a difference?
it makes no fucking difference.
we are still like this.
it hurts me.do you know that?
but i try my best to understand this whole thing.
yes i do and will always be.
until when?
u answer it.

2008-03-07T19:45:00.004+08:00

He got cut!
what the hell!!!
sadded..

Pictures:Danny Noriega

2008-03-07T16:07:00.001+08:00

great song.love it.His voice,one word.WOW.

2008-03-02T19:48:00.004+08:00

life's harder now.
when i have to get those big bucks to buy my everything and anything thats has to be buy before year 2 starts. kan-chiong spider,yes.I have to.i dont wanna be the little miss late and buy my stuff at the eleventh hour.
today was indeed sucky.But love the breakfast.Mom decided not to cook.so we called in MacD delivery instead.yeah,ate my fill and still full (well,maybe,quarter full.after those sleeps).Dont blame me.Its the weather.its so soothing!what a comfy way for me to have a date with my bed.

And all thanks to my sister(the older one i meant).She bruised my ~~leg~~knee.And its so unbearable.FYI,she hit me with my Tv remote.It was so hard that i think the bone can like freaking crack inside(exaggerating).This is crazy because she was like effin skinny like a pole(oopps!) and she could hit me that hard.The last worst one was when she hit me hard on my eyes and resulted me in having the blueblack bulldog's eye.And i think i have to take up any defense classes because im always being the one kissing the ground first!goodness.this is mad.raaaarrrrr...

and im curious on the reasons why people OVERLY-dressed up when they know that we are currently living on a TROPICAL EQUATORIAL CLIMATE and singapore lies on the EQUATOR itself(im so loving GEOGRAPHY!) .dream on if you're thinking that you're gonna dress up like it would be snowing tomorrow.gosh.It super hot in this country and people can happily dressed up like the temp is slowly decreasing.woooosh.and you know what,sometimes i just love the way they are so bold enough to dress up like that and make those around stare like theres some freaking unusual stunt going around.standing out from crowds.Thats cool.NOT. okae i dont know.im contradicting myself. But hey,we do live in a fashion world.But come on,dont have to abuse it and going around making the ~~bad~~ worst fashion statement ever.

i have to suffer with my knee hurting.and have to work and work and work or ill be like a balloon in no time.

and im still sick.
=(

2008-02-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

went to FIRST STEP '08 just now.
it was so boring at first.
wah piang.
damm restless la can.
then after that,
soon picking up.
and i enjoy every moment of it.
loads of blasting hippy and skanky songs that managed to move my body and feet.
it was cool.
the only band i know was only MURDER BY SKA which hubby plays in.
gerek la kaee!
nice songs!
love it.
the rest.sumpah i dont know who they are.haha!sorry people!!
haha
loads of new rising underground band nowadays.
not bad.(for me who dont usually looks on local acts.)
u see.
singaporean.lots of talented pool around.
totaly superb i must say.
but tired laaa..
hahaa...
pictures?ermmm..
im afraid.
i cant upload it as yet.because its not even being transfered to this lappy.
daddy dowant give me the card reader..*-*

and by the wayssss.....
happy BIRTHDAY TO MY ONE AND ONLY HONEYBEE
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HONEY!!!!
woooo ~!!!
yeay!
finaly.
im 2 years younger than you!!
(as my 18 birthday falls on augs.lambat kan.kecian aku.)
wheee!!!!
happy birthday to you baby!
I LOVE U SO MUCH LARR KAE!!
hope u'll like the birthday prezzie ill give you.
mahal tauuu...
haha!ok lame.
hope u have a long life and are able to do whatever you wanna do in this world.
and asalkan.u still love me sudah..
hahaha!
kae2..
aku da merepek!!
yeay!
happy nyerrrr nariiii!!!!!!!

2008-02-16T16:06:00.004+08:00

mommy!
hungerrryyy...

so tired la seyy..
work,work,work.
boring la can?
but i have to.
hee.
cant wait for the day!
=)

and btw,
dreams were made real.
14 feb,
hubby present me a teddy flower.
gosh.
so speechless.
never expected that.
there were 9 of them ouhkae..
ghee!
over the rainbow!!..
pics?
later2 la.
lazy la want to upload..
=))))

kae bye!

LIES..

2008-02-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

im already weak.
super weak.
clueless on what to do,what to say,what to think.
humble + patience.
thats what i need.

god,
if love=hurt,
prove me wrong.
i had enough of crying.
please end this.

please make me strong.
im too weak.
in anytime,
im about to shatter into pieces.
someone,
drug me.

2008-02-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

was a long journey today.
i think.
and i did something stupid.
and ended up we fought in PUBLIC!
can you believe it?
like P-U-B-L-I-C!!
and people were like staring at us as if we r some kind of actor and actress acting a scene there.
it was my fault.
i should have be more understanding.
But...
thats not only that honey.
but its okay.
i hope your brother wud be alright.
i dont meant to create attention from you.
but..
i dont know.
.....
and im sorry.
hope you can accept my apology and hope its not too late.

and then.
we proceed to newton's foodcourt after going through the trouble on going work to take pay just-to-get-to-know-that-the-money-issnt-enough.
wah piang.
have to trouble ourself and take on saturday.
Lucky working sia.
if not...
shit happens man!
okae.
at the food place.
i ate like theres no tommorow.
and i swear i feel like shitting now.ooppss!
celebrated hubby's bestfriend birthday.
and i noe her as only Ifaa.correct right?
so,Happy birthday to you girl!

and then.
proceed home.
and unexpected things happen again.
haha.
i accidentally kept his phone in the bag.
oh my.
and he patah balek from gambas and all the way back to my home just to get it.
awhh..sho shweet!NOT!haha.
aku nie tak abest2 ar nyusahkan org.
and my mom was like all the way peeping through the door hole and said,"mataer kau,mataer kau."its like as though seeing a ghost sia.
haha.
cute ryte.
thats my mom.
ghee.
oh my.
haha.

so today,
fun+ aku-nyusahkn-org-tak-abes2 day!
meaning, gembira+ i-keeps-on-troubling-other-people Day!
okae.
bye.
nak berry.

2008-02-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

enough about weeping and crying.
and blaming of each other.

i just cant help but repeating this song over and over again right now.
so i feel that i might wanna share it with you readers.

and for those who dont even know this song existed,
here's some lyrics for you.
so you can create some sing-along-session on your own.

Lirik Lagu Ketulusan Hati - Anuar Zain

Song / Lagu : Ketulusan Hati - Anuar Zain

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Cintaku hanya indah
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yang ku rasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

(korus)
Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu
Tak mengenal puitis
Hanya tulusnya hati
Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
Selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta
Tak mengenal ingkar
Tak kenal nestapa
Tak ada seribu janji
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yg ku rasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku

(ulang korus)

Apa yang ku rasakan ini
Persembahan untuk dirimu
Kau dengarkan kasihku
Oooo

(ulang korus)

i cudnt sleep.and felt that the blog has to change.
and so i did.
and i still cant sleep.
someone,drug me to sleep please.

2008-02-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

wehheeee...
finally.
after a long 16 weeks of school.and a long and tiring week for me.
and finnaly,
ITS HOLIDAY TIME.
and im so loving it.
after weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks again to school.
and i shall mark that my YEAR ONE have finally ENDED.
yeah!
whee~!
and especially after resolving the disputes we had.
theres definitely a second time to meet and have fun together.

bored.and did nothing.

gonna miss and love them

us again.but this time we included the one and only Paskitani.

she call people minahrep.but shes an ah-alian herself.

the malay students.haha.except for one.its obvious issnt it?haha.jk

whats with efy?she mistook the pole with the mic.

the staircase where we took all the stuffs.hahaa.ooopss!

theres peace back among us.but i dont know for efy.haha.(look at her face man!)

fun ,laughter and joy.even after complication.

oh and btw,on the way to work.theres this lorry.and its so freaking funny!

at the end of the day,ive learnt that we can remove someone's house using a lorry.

2008-01-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

currently: disheartened for school.

want to know why?
i know that its freaking wasting my time to update on this stupid folly thing that REPEATEDLY happen in school.
but i just cant stand this anymore.
majority VS minority.
guess which group i am in?
ahaks.thats right.the minority.
this is so the first time i got this kind of treatment.
especially when the class is full of _____________.
i dont wish to say it further.
i might get sued for this.
yes i know we may not be doing work in class.
but hell,even if we did our best in the class and get involved,did any of ur fucking eyes sees?
what the hell.
dont prove that ure better than us when ure behaving like some immature morons on the street.
ya'll show me ur colours.
and ill show u mine.
to hell with the class spirit.
to hell with all those event ya'll wanna organize.
ya'll can just fucked off and i dont even wanna know you all.
this is the worst class ever that i have.
and i have to survive for like another 6 more days?
to hell with it.

and ive got a big patch on my face.
its fucking hurting me right now.
i cant stand it.
its so hurt.
i cant find the reasons why.
its a sudden thing.
yes,im seeing doctor tomorrow.
and i cant wait.
current:disheartened to step out of the house.

2008-01-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

in need of new job.
so.does anyone who happen to read this post,knows about anything about;

pay:6 bucks or maybe more.that wud be fine.
scope:i have to move around and not stand like the whole time acting like a lampost.
time:flexible.
uniform:provided.not using my own money to buy clothes.=)

please tag me on anything u know or theres lobang to some work that could bring me big bucks.
haha.
thanks.

got to know that a friend of mine since primary school has already got herself a fiancé.
and i still cant believe it.
my age.and already engaged.
damm.i cant imagine myself being in that state.
wow.icant believe still.
never even thought she would be the first.
anyways,congrats babe.

and baby love.
i love u.
soo much that it would not be too much to love u.

2008-01-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

today is a "GET-PISSED-DAY"
ok no.
its,"GET-PISSED-FROM-IGNORANT-PEOPLE-DAY"
y?

especially to fcukers who thinks they are great,
can just fuck off!
mother-shit.
It was just an EXCUSE MISTERs for not putting AIDA's name in the slide.
shit head u Fcukers!
it gets so mad that they can just ask her to present the conclusion slide and her name is not even there on the intro page.
Ure think ure so great?
bullshit.
At least she ask questions and said that she did not understand.
But what did u guys do?
ignore her as if shes not part of the team?
fcuker!
Im so mad about this.
for goodness sake shes in the team since the day start and u all said that u can totally forget to do that.
And fcuker,this is not the first time.
ignorant jerks.
the worst class ever.

and damm.
no work.shortage of money.
what do guys think i should do?
rob a bank?
sounds good.tell me when.and im ready.

and today is a PISSED day.
thanks to u FUCKERS who spoils the day.

and emma is so sweet today.she bought for me karipap knowing that ive got the terrible-shit cramp-once-a-month.appreciate it.love u la babe.see.emma is sweet.haha.
and im so pissed to get this 'illness once a month'.
ok thats piss again.
aiyo.

and im not making it as ur fault.
why do u have to say like that?
i know im so pissed because of this PMS shit thing.
But its like rubbing it further.
ok i need something by the name of "PEACE" and "CALMNESS"

2008-01-14T12:54:00.000+08:00

Meet Uncle Hussain And Bittersweet are LOVE!!!
Im in love with these underground band.
Rocking the socks seyy..
I meant,they're from Malaysia's Underground Band.
But they deserve the recognition seyy..
And i wish for the Local singaporeans talents too..
like,MBS,(eh-hemm.),the Sallys...
Yeah.their songs rocks too..
Nice..
But give some 'name' for them can?

"Meet Uncle Hussain"

"Bittersweet"

They will be love..
=))

2008-01-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

im allergic to school!!

reach school.and i sneeze non stop.
damm.have to endure another this one month till year one ends.
so long la sials.
ok whatever.

updates about Uncle's wedding celebrations.
was fun.but superuberduper tiring.
shortage here and there.
but all in all.everything is fully settled.
and the most memorable thing was.
suddenly the girls were made to do the washing of dishes.
damm.malu la sials.
and the makciks2 saw us,and they laugh at us.aper jek.
aku da pakai glamour2.beh kene cuci pinggan mangkok.
jatoh saham aku.
bur nevermind.uncles wedding mah.
pics were taken.
but not all i upload it to here.
byk sgt.
blog aku nie bukan nyer photo album.

2008-01-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

dang.
specs broke again.
oh my.
i wonder if i have a curse on wearing specs.
shoot lar.
its been numerous times i change to a new one since i start wearing glasses.
damm i hate it.

im so pissed.
and im pissed.
and im very pissed.
and im super pissed.

and im sad..
=((

2008-01-01T17:14:00.000+08:00

People!
its the first day of 2008 today!!
dang.time really fly fast.
ok first,
im gonna update about the chalet stay.
its fun.superbly fun.
with all the crazy peeps.
not much pics were taken though.
but theres pics when we went pulau ubin.
believe it.
first thought i had when w are going there was,"am i dreaming?damm.thats totally not my place!"
but all in all.
its an enjoyable an super tiring journey as we cover parts of the pulau with that old duo bicycle.
and not to forget about the mosquito being my bestest fren and help me getting those red marks on my skin.
damm u mosquito!never will i forgive you.
some pics here.well.not pretty much though.hee

the house in pulau ubin.which i dont know what it is.because i was too tired

the most frequent visit throughout the ubin trip.hee.

this is what happen when someone is sleeping.

the cat and the clown.ok we're bored kae.

next up.
yesterday.
we celebrated iqah's bitrhday.well its belated actually.
hee
not much.
but i felt that the get-together-thing is the one which im excited about.
but all in all.

happy birthday syafiqah.once again.=)
my babes and my man.
lawa anak mak blow candle.

2007-12-27T20:36:00.000+08:00

feeling the urge to blog.
so suddenly.
i dont know why.
maybe im just too bored.
or maybe, im just excited.
or maybe, im just alone.

right now,waiting for the loading of the KAMI series to finish.
so i can like watch it without gettin stuck here and there.
and im so crazy over this drama series.
eventhough it airs only 8 episodes.
but it shows and teaches about all sorts of things..
love life,drugs,hottest gigs.
and songs are cool too.
and in total.
im loving it!
and im so stuck with it!

and yeah.
chalet tomorow.
yeszzaaa!!
cant wait.
hopefully everything turns out right.
and cant wait for the excitement!

ok i have to pack.
but im freaking lazy to do it.
how i wish theres someone to pack my bag for me.
dang..

hope ure not hiding anything from me.
coz i sensed something that i try to run away from.

2007-12-22T20:48:00.000+08:00

we were bored today.
and we went for a haicut.
bb got his new haircut.
so am i.
but i was so dumb to forget about something.
but nvm..
wad is done,is done..
cant regret it any further.

then.
we were bored.
and bored.
and bored.
and bored.

and we took pictures.
stoopid picture which makes me look cute.
wahahah!
and of course.
hubby too...=__="
haha.

(told ya.i look cute)

(ok.his face was like,"WHATEVER")haha
(no comment)(ok cute.only my face.ok no..none.)=P

and this were the rings we bought yesterdae..soo shwweet of him.=)))oooohhhh shhwweetss!ooooh-la-la!

chalo beitey!

2007-12-19T12:38:00.000+08:00

Yeay!!!
went shopping yesterday.
super tired but enjoyingsss.
plenty have yet to be bought.
ah nie laa..
if ader duet,ader jer tknk beli.
if takader duet,smuer nak beli.
aiyo.

met asmira.
shes working.
and im accidentally involved in her plot.
lucky for the shoe u gave me babe.
or else....
ghee..
and as usual.
shes always been like that when shes working.
"free stuff are free to grab"
thanks once again for the hundred-over-value of wedges.

u guys wanna see what we accumulated last nite?
there you go :)

Again intro(from clockwise):pink diary book("gift" from asmira),not-really-a-dress-shirt from JL,boyfys singlets(takan aku yg akai kan),wedge shoe from ES(again "gift from asmira"),boyfys ADIDAS shoe,mine EVERLAST shoe,and,boyfys boxer from Byford)

2007-12-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

well...today is sunday.
Im all the way at home since yesterday..
and what a relief that its finally Holidays!
even though its just for 3 weeks.im grateful enough.
i must say.this holiday is quite a packed one for me.
first start.
SHOPPING trip with boyfy!
this coming tuesday!
after all those tiring saving up(well,not reallly)
and i can spend like theres no tomorrow on this coming tuesday!
yipeee!i can like finally add stuff to my wadrobe.

second up,
UNCLES WEDDING!!
yeah!
finally.haha.
and i was asked by uncle to make-up for my aunty-to-be..
aiyo..leceh la..Im not tat good afterall..unless if i were to make up for myself.
but nvm.shall wait for that day..
this few coming weeks! and im sure be busy for the whole week man!aiayayaya!

thirdly,
cant wait for that trip to SENTOSA with the girls.
its confirmed!
and im looking forward to it..
shall tan myself..and chilling around..

fourthly,day after Sentosa,
its CHALET time!
with boyfy and friends..
someones burfday. but sadly,i dont know her name.
hee..
gotta be fun over there..
cant wait for it either.

lastly,COUNTDOWN..
and this time,it is reserved for my darlings!
its a countdown cum iQah's birthday celebration.
phew..i still dont know what to buy for her..
but never the mind.
i cant wait when some of us will be bringing boyfy down and spend those quality time together.
its been like ages since we hang out man!its like only this date that we can totally agree on to meet up and furthermore celebrate new year!
dammit!
i cant wait for this too..

so yeah peeps..
tats all the plan i have...
any plans with me,u can book me next year kae!
=p

2007-12-09T16:40:00.001+08:00

now thats what im talking about.
can i make a wish since Christmas is around the corner.
*i wish to have this as a present from that someone.can?*
haha!
who's that someone?
surprise me.
=))

2007-12-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

I know im not being myself lately.
i dont know why.
i can find myself either.
its just that,no one hears me out.
its just that i cant have the courage to tell u.to tell anyone.
Im so stupid and im dumb to care about other people feelings than taking care of my own.
sometimes i wonder why shud i do that?
maybe i dont want them to be hurt.feel lonely.and all those stuff.
im just plain stupid.
everything seems unfair.
i know u do care.
but i dont even feel it.
sometimes i question myself 'do u meant wad u did?'

im lost.
i dont expect anything else.
i just wish that everything is alright.
i just wish for a respect which i feel that my dignity has just been scratch till it bleed.
i just wish to be appreciated.
i just wish for everything to be fine like before.

i dont wish to repeat the history i had 9 months ago.
because i feel it now.at this very moment.
i dont think i can stand too long.
and my heart keep saying. its not anymore.
i know it is lying.
i dont wish to let the past haunt me back ryte now.
because i dont feel anything anymore.
i know time is all i need.
but i need that someone too.whom i can know that im not alone.
but looking back.
i never have that someone.

im just disappointed with how things are right now.
what exactly do i fucking want?
why do i care so much of people needs and wants?
and why do i let myself being stepped on?
why do people judge me without knowing me?
and why? why is these questions appear now?
im way too hurt.but i dont show.its not a fucking show and tell.
where do i stand?
at the corner of the room standing timidly among those bigger people?
i cant take it anymore.
but i know i have to be strong.
people are shellfish nowadays.
and i just need time.
time is all i need to be the medicine of this fucking life.

and im sorry if i ever behave in such manner.
i just felt that u dont listen that much.u dont take note that much.
its okay.
thats life.people only wants to hear them out.
but never hear or listen to what others are saying..
life is unfair.
ill remain being unheard.
like it is always be.
it is just not anymore...

2007-11-24T15:50:00.001+08:00

so back from Jb last nite.
well.kinda fun but uber tiring.
im dang sleepy and aching.and we have to walk and walk and walk.
lucky it was shopping.its a fav!
stopped to eat at pizza hut and i ate my fill and i was so bloated to walk.
then.continue shopping around that cityplaza,
and i bought some stuff.
i ought to buy more.
but..
time is limited.aiayaya..

(so these are some of the things ive bought.hee.the pantyliner,shades,bangle and the classic tidbits-which-i-bought-it-just-for-the-toy)

2007-11-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

in class now..
bored.
and today is cognitive.
and i got a new faci who claimed he's from India..
look like malay.but so what gitu lor.
and u know what?
he's utterly irritating la seyy..
i think he's a perv..
haha..
and i think he has a crush on gayathri..
wahaha..
gawdd...this is damm boring..

im having the aching moment of my life yet again..
i meant.
my body.
aches la sial.
from all the working and all stuff..
hardworking kan aku nie..
haha..
simpan duet nak kawen agaknyer...
haha..okae.aku crap.

off to JB after school..
shop2..because its mom's burfday today!!!!
wheee....

so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY LOVE!!

muacksss!

chalo beitey..

ps.
babyhoney.be strong.i love u no matter what u are.ill always be with u.always.
muackks to u too!

2007-11-17T21:39:00.001+08:00

woosshhh...
been too long since i updated this blog..
okae..i shall activate back this blog..
ouhkae people..(if theres still ppl who look out fer my update la)
ive been busy working and schooling lately.
dont know why.
not for money.
but i just have no idea why.
im so getting used to it which makes me fall sick even more.
hardwrking kan aku nie..
i also donnoe why im hardworking like this..
its like,if i so free and easy,im bored.
so..just work lor...
soory people! who asked me out but i was unable to be there because of work.
so sorry lar..

and today..
haha!
was good.
but may i post a question to u ppl out dere?.
WHAT DO U CALL A BITCH WHOS ALWAYS SEEKING FOR ATTENTION??

an attractive bitch?
haha!
fuck la..

dont mind my language people.
im seriously cant help it but feeling irritated.
damm it..
only god knows what ive been feeling..
so people.watch out for this bitch yaw..
lets not show name to prevent my ass from being caught.
but just a brief description about this ass.
:she's craving for attention of everyone.its a pity that she wants more eventhough she have still her parents with her.
:she's someone who-people-says-shes-cute-but-comeonlarr-shes-slenger-la...
:wads so good about her that dumb people or even boys get along with her?..ooppss...!didnt meant to..but come on boys!
:she's waiting for me to give her a one big tight slap up front down.and im hoping for it to come.so that she knows what life is in reality.

aiyaaa.....
i damm bloody hate her laa..
in fact i hate everything about her or anything got to do with her.
but i noe.i cant escaped from it because it involves hasif.
haish..
ive not even seen someone's EX behaving like this..
god damm..i feel ashamed as a girl looking at what she did.
menagih simpati.craving for attention.craving for love.
but why the hell u threw it away at that moment of time?
come on lar bitch.im sure ure not dumb to realise that ure hurting everyone..
u wanna love?shall i give u some love which can lend u having free hospital food and bed??
dont force me doing something i dowant to do..
and dont let me see u in anywhere of this part of the world.
or.u have to pay for everything u did.
and im not mad.
im just mad.

2007-10-23T08:58:00.000+08:00

yeah...updates for you people..
okae nothing much.
last sun went out raya..
planned was to with my girls..
but....
THANKS LA KAN...
ok whatever..

so instead went out with boyfy..
raya..
that was fun.but too bad i was sick..
haish..
sick.sick and sick..
till today...
and i was so weak all the way...
but nvm...

and yesterday,
skip school..because i was too weak to wake up..
but then still went to work..
hardworking kan aku..
but luckily kene the VVIP which i need to serve those MPs..
partner with hasif..
and those serving the vip kan,cork la sey..
service pey baek kiter kac..
haha..
vip tak vip...
and going home after work,its raining..
dang..
i was supposed to get better.
but instead,its getting worse.

and now.in class.
getting deafer and deafer...
maner tak...
side by side maen CS..
beh blast sound mcm maot...
aiyer..
should i go home ke tak nie?

i had a very bad dream.
dream that made me cried in my sleep..
i hate it when im sick...
ill get those dream..
arghhh...

2007-10-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

hey people!
and today is the EVE of raya..
i should be happy..
but sadly,im not.
im not excited for raya tis time.
infact,i dont even know if its really going to raya or not tomorrow.

im bored.
theres nothing much i can do at home except for helping my mom with the cookings for tomorrow.which i dislikes it.
so all i did was to on my lappy,on my tv and surf the net.thats it!
how bored can it be.
i remembered where we used to be busy during raya eve.and my fam would go to my grannys house to help out those boiling of ketupats and stuff.
and i would be there not helping but busy playing with the charcoal.its fun when i see my hand getting blacker and blacker.
tats was fun ouhkae.
but now?nahh...
its has no meaning stuck to it.
i dont feelt like its festive tomorow.
well....wad can i do?is just wait for tomorrow and go with the flow baby..
i had enough of thinking oreadie to think about things..

but before i forget,i would like to wish those muslim people reading this post a happy hari raya and enjoy your raya people!

and im NOT done with this thing.
this things about this slut.oooppss!did i just called u a slut?hell yeah i did u fcuker!
first thing first,why the hell in the world do i bother so much about u?because of u fcuker i suffered a super splitting headache.
can u just fcuk off?
ive still yet to hear what has happened last night.
but i dont think i wanna know about it.
i know i dont have the right to curse and swear about you.
its not im scarred of you or wad bitch.its because i dont want him to be hurt.
but why does he have to be hurt unless if he STILL have feelings fer her BACK!?

omgomgomg...
my life is a messed ryte now..
im not gonna stand or sit still..
im gonna fight my way through.
i wish i could forget all this stuff...
fat hope.

lastly,to you bitch...
be careful ouhkae.be very very careful.
nahh...dont worry..
i dont do silly stuff..
thats dumb..

2007-10-09T09:26:00.000+08:00

okae back..
im happy!!!!
hee..
all my worries gone.
and i dont have to think too much..
only for this friday..
yarh..
FRIDAY..
eve of raya..
but i hate it.
not hate it.
but i just dont like it.
SHE SUX!
haha..
hell yeah..she is.
omg..
okae...
over it wani!
dang~!!

and ouh yarh...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA to YOU ALL!!!
i enjoying it oreadie now!!
haha!
bluek!

2007-10-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

ouhkae2.raudha asked me to do this something she meant.so here i go.bored.

Layer 1: On the outside
Name: wani
Birth date: 15august
Current status:happily taken.
Eye colour:like wad most asians have.
Hair colour: blonde streaks thats fading away =__=*

Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: malayu
My fears: loads to talk about.
My weaknesses:im a human with weakness that i have to improve on.
My perfect pizza: anything that doesnt has too much veggie too little chicken.

Layer 3:Yesterdae, Today, Tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: wad time issit now?
My bed time:when ive got nothing to do or tired.
My most missed memories: loads.those shweet memories of course.

Layer 4: My pick
Pepsi or coke: coke.
Single or group dates: single.romance is in the air! =))
Adidas or Nike:adidas. especially that special berdae watch from hubby.love it!
Vanilla or chocolate:vanilla with choclate. theres such thing ok.
Cappucino or coffee: cappucino.

Layer 5:Do You?
Smoke:haha.hell yeah.
Curse: lots of time and was asked to change this dumb cursing thingy.
Take a shower:ill be smelling like a fish if i dont shower.pey bodoh nyer quest.
Have a crush:wahaha..used to.not now.im hapily in love.
Go to school:yeah.poly.bored kan.
Believe in yourself: yeah.i think.

Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol:NOT a once.
Gone to the mall: like duh~!
Dyed your hair: yeah.

Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game:haha.wanna try once?sounds like fun!haha
Change who you were to fit in:uh-hum.i try to be myself as i can.

Layer 8:Are you hoping to
Get married: yeah baby.sooner or later.=p

Layer 9:In a partner
Best eye colour:like wad an asian man should have.i dont wanna dem to look like a GAY.
Best hair colour:anything is fine but not extreme such as it has been named as 'golden monkey'..eewww.
Long or short hair:not too long.not too short.but i missed those hair he had during those tymes.

Layer 10: What were you doing
A minute ago: im typing on this lappy to do this damm thing.
An hour ago:watching tv.
A month ago:work and rotting.
A year ago:studying fer the Os.touching kan.org nak rayer kiter sebok study.

Layer 11: Finish the sentences
I love: everyone who loves me!!i love loads of ppl so ppl loves me like super many la eh?hehe..
I hide:when im in trouble..haha
I miss: boyfy.my girls.my friends who i trust with.
I need: money and i need you.=)

Layer 12: TAG 5
i dont have to tag 5.fer those whos interested may do it on ur blog yaww!
=))

2007-10-03T12:28:00.000+08:00

im beat.aint no strength to do anything and everything.somebody kill me.RYTE now please.
i dont know why issit this i felt.i cant be bothered by things.not at least ryte now.
give me peace and ill just do my own things.
tats it.

and bytheway,im not dedicating or wadsoever u all call it to anione or everyone.
im pouring my heart out.
thats it.
nothing less.
nothing more.
i shall fcuk off now.

2007-09-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since ive updated.i guess.
well,im bored la kan.
supposedly to do the raya kuehs today but my mom is not in and hasnt came back till now.
so im left rotting on my bed and updating my blog.
im beat.legs are so aching.
but tats life.have to struggle and survive that.
wad should i talk about ryte now?hmm.
bought a helmet and it looks soo sweet.like me.duh-uh!~
thinking of adding the bee-yatch words.
cool.when i got the money perhaps.
raya is aroung the corner and money becomes the main priority here..
well,not really.urmm..but really it is.
need to buy things for raya.all those essential things dat i cant missed it each year.
talking bout raya.
raya dis tyme is definitely a different one.
its a sad one.
with no where to go on the 1st.well,its bearable though..
and im getting full up with all those raya songs.
it saddens me at times and it hyper me at tymes too.
so the whatever..

and this tummy is like making a concert for like donnoe wadever reason for.
perot ku saket laa..
hungerryyyy....
shall endure..
well,tats wad ramadhan is all about issnt it?

im sensing something different here..
shush...

2007-09-21T13:04:00.000+08:00

.THERES NO WAY BACK.

2007-09-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

just why do i have to HURT others feeings..
yarh i may be rude..
partly because im angry..
because im in fear..
yarh whatever..
i just donoe wad to say animore..
im hurt and i hurt.
how cool is dat people?
too much things that i think i have to let out..
but ive let it out like, a big portion of it?
yeah..
but still things does not change.
never will be.
am i proud of wad i did?
no im not.
why on earth do i have to hurt when i noe i am hurt and i noe how it feels like to do it to another people.
and why do i LIKES to feel the hurt wheares it dont bother me really sometimes.
i think ive went over board on it.
sensitivity all that...it TAKES CHARGE.
oh gosh.
its like the olden days..
i just dont know how,why,what,when...
argh...
whatever it is.
its like,how much more people do have to suffer because of being hurt?
youandme knows it really well.i hope.

im still hurt though..
and i noe ure still hurt too.
my heart was never mend.and i think it will never be mend.
im just hoping for the best.
and eventhough it is shattered,
im still happy.

am i down?
no im not.
im gonna stand stong.
cant repeat time..
if i could..
i dont wish to be belong to the past.neither now.
i wish to feel just like heaven

2007-09-17T10:12:00.000+08:00

ouhkae..pheww..
new class.new people.new facis.new srurrounding.
started of with a dull and boring surrounding.
picking up well.
some are quiet.some are quite loud.
but none are HOT! wahahahaha!
but never the mind.
i guess i have to like this class in order for my journey in this school to rocks.
so yarh...
getting to noe and be known..
quite fun.
but bored.
takper wani,first day.endure.
biler nak buke...
wahahaha!

2007-09-16T02:43:00.000+08:00

ola people..
reason im up this very hour was simply to wait for sahur(pre-dawn eating.yerke??)..
hehe..
merepek kan aku.dapat tido taknk tido.
=P
yarh,simply because just came back from work.
and dont feel tat tired after all cause it feels like im slacking the whole hour during work.
so here i am,posting a blog and i dont know wad to do.
hmmm...
nak crite ape eh?
ermmm...
i think ill get an either red,black or green maybe for my raya outfit tis year...(sumpah org tak taye!)
and somemore..
i need to set aside money,money and lots of money..
to buy wad i want which i aint wanna tell.theres like super alot.
merepek kan aku nie bebual ngarot mcm gini.
errrr.
i think im done with craping..
so wad should i do now?
i oso donoe...
daa..stop it eh wani.last warning~...(only certain people will understand how this phrase goes)
wuahahahaha...
cialo beitey.

oh.and btw.
happy birthday to my lil sis..
just turn 10 yrs old eh..
cute kan?cute kebabai....

2007-09-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

today buke outside..
planned was to buke at geylang..
but its like bored laa..
trust me to go geylang like on th SECOND day of puase..
well not me alone laa adoink...
off we both to take pay(me only kae!hehe!) then ride to geylang..
wwweeeellllll........
kinda get lost laa..
haha
we totally explore the EAST side today.
so yarh...walk here and there..and i bought that slack which ive longed wanted to buy..
wheee~!!!
beh wani pastu teros pakai siol...
wakakaka!
then headed to buy some food..and its like veryy long2 time no eat tat foods...
mak..englishku dahh corrupt ar..donoe how to explain laa...
ouhkae whatever...
then guess wad...
headed to ECP plak..and we decided to buke saner..
hahaa..
then on the process to go there,we got LOST again..
and its like we turn one BIG round la sey..
and pantat pon da saket..haha
yarh..then we went to chill2 for awhile before heading home...
yeah..tats for today..
tomorow working..
so if i want to update,i update laa...
u all wait ajer laa kae...
sempena buland ramadhan nie...mesti ader patience...because i noe u all love reading my updates ryte?kan?kan?kan?
wahahha!!!
ciao baby!!

2007-09-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

2007-09-13T13:39:00.000+08:00

ouh yeah..
fasting month finally arrived.
im grateful to god that ive been given the chance to still live in this world till now.
and yarh,im fasting.
and im sleepy.
maner tak,went OC yesterdae.
and im tired.super tired.
saw asmira and shai under my void deck wen reached here.
omg,like fer how many weeks,we did not met and finally we met.
itupon by coincidence.
so yarh,me and boyf chill fer awhile while teman-ings dem to eat.
sahor la tuu dorg agaknyer..hehe..
then headed back home.
and yarh,
im still thinking to consider accepting or not about the secretary job he offered.
well,its part time aniway,tat shouldnt be a problem..
but part tyme pon,the working hours is not flexible seyy given that im still schooling and y'all noe the standard time of studying in rp.dumb.
hmmm..
shall i,or shall i not?
tats the question.

2007-09-10T22:36:00.001+08:00

Guess wad?
NEW class is out!
darn!!!!~
i get W46E...
hear it out guys..W46E!!
wah piang eh...
need to like exercise in the morning to walk to the freaking block..
somebody tell me the SHORTCUT to that block PLEASE!!
and somemore....
i dont meant to be rude tau...
but...
ive checked the my FUTURE classmates...
and asal mcm byk..er...kels jerr...
haha...no IM NOT BEING RUDE OUHKAE...
but...arghhh!!
darn!
damm the system...
ouhkae...lets say it out again..
W46E!!!
wuahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

shall update bout this class more..
haha..
wen school reopen lorr...deng...

2007-09-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

today was our most DUMB-esttt day of all..
y?
because we practically went dumb! dumb..
haha..joking la dumb...
wahahaaa...
i meant yarh we did went dumb to almost anything and everything we did today..
to the ordering till to the leaving of things in cinema theater..

so wad did Mr Munchkin and Mrs Munchkin did today?
firstly,off to take pay then headed to marina square..
went for movies..and we movie marathon today..
well not really that marathon..
we just went to watch 2 movies..
so is that considered a marathon? dont bother telling me..i aint wanna know :)))
and yeah.
first was RAtatouille..
super hillarious and funny laa...
never thought that mouse can be shooo superuberduper cuteee...hee
then second was 1408..
im still not satisfied that y must it be 1408 and not 1508...dammit..
heee....
this movie...wad should i say?
dissappointing laa..but ouhkae laa....
the movie went around the circle..like circling around.does it makes sense to ya'll?
hmmm.....
but whatever it is..
today was great spending tyme with should i call you MR MUNCHKIN then?hee
and we went dumb today...
tat made the highlight of our trip today...
:))

2007-09-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

ouh yeah..layout change again..
bored and rotting at home with no work so i decided to kill the time to find the layouts one by one..
mcm dumb la seyy..
aniwaess..i deserve a clap ouhkae for the success in not choosing a BLACK layout..
bravobravo!! *____*

so wad did i do today?
ermmm..ermm..
besides the hours of searching and searching for one dumb layout,
i managed to get myself out from home to meet the darlings of mine and lepaks wit them..
actually aku malas la seyy..hee
and bytheways,
i shall take this chance to curse the rapist a.k.a flasher a.k.a dumb a.k.a idiot a.k.a whateverunamedit.
lu frooking one lunatic guy u noe..
and its a confirm that my estate area is insecure.
pasal ape?pasal dekni la..nabeeessss...
ouhkae...let me story the telling..
last two days,there was a OUTRAGE OF MODESTY at my block.like again?
then yesterday,there was a INDECENT EXPOSURE beside my block.
and its always the same thing happen and happen again around this area.
we should move out la seyy..right mommy and daddy?
or,,we could hire guards..can?like hello,kite 3 dare tau..er,maybe + my mom?mak dare somemoree..=p
then boyf will be my guard laa..can?sure can one..
beh somemore not working laa the people who ought to keep track of this place..
but whatever it is,girls,dont be out late.if ure gonna be home late,make sure there will be a MALE adult to accompany u home or fetch u home..see,thats a good thing of being a FEMALE.i meant,laydees..
mcm paham jer wani..aku yg kene jage2 nk step nasihat org plak..haha

alaaa..bored laa..
somebody entertain aku laa...

2007-09-02T15:10:00.000+08:00

Cant hold any longer

am sorry for having to end things this way.

gone for a smoke..

2007-09-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

been feeling shitty for the past few days..
aint know y..
feels like wanna curse and swear to everyone,everything i did
is there something wrong with me or wad
i hate this feeling
just hate the way THIS PEOPLE treat me which i aint deserve for that
shoot!
pissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissed!!!!!!!
dont bother cause i aint bother

btw,thanks bibik for the massage
felt great.mestilah,,free..haha...
Arggghhhhh!!!

Just wadehell is wrong with you?
ouh wait..im not supposed to be angry REMEMBER??
am happy cant ya see??=)))))))))))))))

intimidation grows...

2007-08-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

due to a high demand for an update from me,
hence im updating about my life now..
firstly,still sad over the gone of beloved grandma..god bless you nenek.
then,err...holiday-ing ryte now.......yehooo!!haha
but still have to work to keep my income strong..hurhur..
next,boyf just took out his bike last thurs..
nice..hee
err next,
well nothing much...
just leading my life the way it is like usual..
and yeah..
tats all...
hee..
ciao!

2007-08-23T09:02:00.000+08:00

In memories of grandma from 1942-22.08.2007
I shall always remember you..
And I missed you real much
And I missed those times where we were having fun and u always poke me to make me melatar..
You were the one who im close to
Remember the time where we need to take your blood test and you endure the pain of the poking needles..

Oh my god..im totally shocked and did not expect you to be gone so fast…
Maybe that’s what ALLAH wants to show to us all the human being the greatest of him..
This time you were happy and the next you were gone…
well thats life and we have to accept it..

I just pray and hoping that you will be put among those who are good in a place called HEAVEN.and may your soul be blessed..
And forever will be in my heart remembering you..
And together to all my muslims friends who may have read this,may we together sedekahkn AL-FATIHAH semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.thank you.amin ya ra-abaal-alamin.

2007-08-17T19:02:00.000+08:00

ooohhhhlalaaaa...
been spending like 3 days? finding a freaking one bloglayout..
and finally did change and this is the result..
dont Q why i chose this layout..
i completely have no idea..
maybe juat because of the eyes of this model.
hee.nice la sey..

ouhkae just now in school..
well..
as expected,little only turn up for class..
and we had only 2 groups to present.
but it was darn farking bored in class and i felt so restless that i wanna kill myself..
and emma,may u be happy with MR''uknowwho''..
happy for you la girl...
don force..let it come by itself.
ouhkae babe?hees...

i still ought to find someone who can fix back tis dumb button of my lappy.
it keeps popping out when im typing.
irritating laa siak..
eeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...geram nyer aku!!!

2007-08-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

oh yeah...
had a superduper fun on my 17th birthday..
thanks ya'll for all the birthday wishes..
love ya'll loads!!

started with 14 august.
my beloved dudettes in class surprised me.
a birthday necklace from emma.so lawa laa....
a birthday baby tigger from kak sophia.so cute la..
haha...
seriously didnt expect it la..
but seriously thanks aloott..
but for the rest who wishes me,,seriously,i do remember and always cherish ya'll as my friends.

next would be on the 15th itself..
finally turn 17 and GOING to 18.haha
went out wit boify..
jalan2..
he gave me a watch and it was like so lawa laa..
haha
*blush2
seriously,,after the guessing and pissing off from the guessing,
the answer have been out.hee..
and after that headed to breeks for a meal..
and pictures are ought to be uploaded..
just wait la kaes..
hee..

totaly superb happened tis tyme for birthday..
new friends,new surroundings..new chapter of life...
and tis keypad of tiz laptop ryte..
alamak..
who knows how to fix the buttons(whatever it called laa) coz my fullstop button/key terkeluar laa..fark ar..
how to fix back siak?
pissed2

2007-08-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

watched RUSH HOUR 3 with boyf just now.
decided to went to AMK hub instead as today was the NATIONAL DAY of Singapore and we knew that we would suffer in the crowdedness of peeps in town.
btw..HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!FOR TURNING .........errr..how old eh?
okae whatever la eh..
well this movie was not disappointing after all like since RUSH HOUR 1.(like duhh)
hilarious and fun for a casual watching..

wanna watch License To Wed plak la...
its on the 16th..
hurhur..
after a year older in this world.
yefooo!!!
birthday coming la seyy!!
haha..
fyi people!
im free okae for tat day!!
wakakaa....

2007-08-08T18:36:00.000+08:00

a big thankyou and appreciation to a virus named Trojan that my baby here is sick..
eventhough you were killed,i know that somehow u still hiding in the little corner in my baby's organs.
because of you that i need to reorganize and installing back what you have destroyed.
are you like gonna be gone for the rest of my baby's life?
answer me can?
hee.
u dumb2 u..
u make my baby sick.
u trouble me u noe.
u make me worry about tis lil baby of mine.
aiyayayayaaa...
go get some "computer" pills and overdose yourself can?

2007-08-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

okae 2 things happen..
first lets talk about yesterdae..
last nite was Bs fren's berdae..
n i forgot the name of that person..hee
well happie berdae then..
it was fun eating at LauPasat..
then headed to esplanade thinking that we could chill after eating..
but however due to the SATURDAY(hate that!) mood and also the baybeats going on..
it was darn crowded la sey..
with minahs and mats..like WADEVA laa eh..
irritating jerr..
pandang2jeling2stare2..like what the fuck laa..
irritating bunch..get a life can?
haha..
chill around dere and then headed home..and sleep..(which is SO not enough)

and today..
was Kendarats day..
it was so tiring and i felt like just after working..
darn tired that i wanna sleep.hees.
oh yarh,emma did sang just now..
the elegi sepi song..
and she sang it like the original singer did..
was so SEDAAAPPPPPPP laa..
sedap?no i meant,the voice..
have always been supporting you with your singing ouhkae..
bravo to emma..
so people.lets give a clap to my dearest emma here for the courage to sing..
haha..
then went lepakings with my dearest darlinks..raudha and iqah.
btw,thanks dha for agreeing to the kendarat..haha
okae2..
hands too tired to type.
so ciao!
gud nite people!

2007-08-02T08:55:00.000+08:00

Its not always about u huh?
It seems that u don’t care bout what I feel.
Its not about me being jumping to a conclusion.
But this is what I felt.
Ya, truth hurts. but the truth is what hurts me now.
I was alone in the toilet.worst still,I cried..
Nobody knows,nobody cares.
U just didn’t bother to care huh?
Okae fine,I understood.
Go with them for all u want.
Im not asking for all your BLOODY FARKIN time to be spent on me.
I don’t BLOODY FARKIN care..no,actually I care.
It just you u don’t realise it YET.
U went blind.with all your farking world.
I was like ur puppet huh?
Its okae.then you can be my puppeteer.u are free to dump me wherever you want when u don’t need me.
U claimed that u got a feelings too?
What about me?its clear that im just a puppet who is so useless and have no FARKIN sense of feelings huh?

Thanks for the downess I felt.
Thanks for the tears ive shed.
Thanks for making me feel unimportant.
Thanks la eh.i don deserve your world.i long knew.
Im backing my feet out ryte now.

And if u think that this was all my PMS thingy..
U completely wrong.no..its not completely wrong..
Its fucking bloody shit completely wrong.
U don’t have to be sorry because Im not asking for any forgiveness or whatever shit.
I just need an understanding of the whole thing.
If u think that im selfish,ignorance,ckp siket sensitive…or whatsoeverunamedit
Im okay with it.
U have the whole freedom of speech,feelings on the world..
Just continue dumping me anywhere.
Its not like I owe you my life.

This was what I felt. and I think its much more worst than the hurt u felt when u were being treated like that .i just seek for an understanding. not another feelings of being a puppet in YOUR WORLD.

2007-08-01T10:24:00.000+08:00

okae back from clubbin..oopppsss..nope2..partying i meant..haha
last nite was the JUMP party at RP..
the start was so like..err..WHATEVER!!
but towards the end is where we have been waiting for..
all kinds of songs,all kinds of people,all kinds of moves
that was so much fun..
"DROP IT LIKE ITS HOT"
that was a worth of a poly time spent with:

emma
shirin
myra
zilah
keith
yatt
raju
lala

its fun,fun,fun time..
and im having my aching moment.feet was so aching.
thanks to the shoe i wear la eh..
wheeeeeeeeeee~
chalo beitey!

2007-07-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

got back from watching ALONE with b...
i must say its a "MUST WATCH" movie.
i think i nearly got a heart attack from the movie..
and it was like my embarrassing moment that my shoutings is like soo loud..
blame it on the movie
the climax was like all the way la sey..
cool stuff to watch with a twist at the end..
stupid you Ploy.u ought to be dead not Pam!

b bought me a shoe..
it was soo nice..
a huge thanks kaes...muackksss!!
dont spoil me la kae b?
wheeeeeeee~

partying tommorow!!wheeeeeeee~
im all hyper up
ciao baybeh!

2007-07-28T15:19:00.000+08:00

currently in with this song..i dont know why..perhaps its from the past..
its not about what i felt at the moment because right now im happy with how things are..
im happy that ive got my family,
happy that ive got him.
happy that ive got my darlings

happy that ive got the dudes and dudettes from my class..
and simply im happy.

2007-07-26T18:50:00.000+08:00

ouh kae..
guess what..
emma brought up a new sign for the WHATEVER thing again..
and this time is in a complete package..
its like this..
[with hand signals the word W]
here we go..
first is
W.(with both your fingers from your both hands making up the W)
then its,
W(which is using the 2 fingers to show that its BOLD)
then finally its,
W(and your fingers would be slanted to show that its ITALLIC)

LIKE superUberduperBuperjuperKuperwuper WHATEVER laaa...
haha...
can go crazy with these people man..
especially with my dudettes and dudes in my class..
so the Love them like alot!
rocks my time in class..

2007-07-25T09:11:00.001+08:00

heya..
in class now..
darn sleepy like hell...
and its so baring la today..
and i think im feeling feverish now..

back from jamming last night..
hee.
not me laa jamming..
followed bie to his jamming session...
it was so fun that i suddenly felt sleepy..
haha..
not because or boringness but the songs they did was the type where i will be sleepy..
wakaka..
badbad..

okae2..
class start..
ciao!

2007-07-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

heya...
just got back from watching HP..
okae dudes and babes..
i shall take back my words about this harry potter and the order of phoenix..
im having my disappoinment moment with this movie..ghees..
its so boring laa...
but okae la AT A CERTAIN PART ONLY...
watched it with emma,shirin and kak sophia..
it was my ferst tyme though watching with my new classmates..=p
it was so funn laa...

then after that headed to pizza hut..
koz kak sophia really does keeps her promises since like before we watched the show..
OMG laa this akak here..
really an angel laa..haha..
she treats us pizza sey...
n it was like after 7 and i ate pizza..hmpphh..
haha..[soo sorry diet plan!hees]
but it was soo fun that we sat there and just did the gurls talk..
u noe its been a long tyme since ive done that with my darlinks okaesss...
n we bitched,n we talked and we dip that pizza in the cheesy 'soup'...
but in the end,
its kak sophia who i really[x10000][flowers on my hand] ought to thanks la...
so..
A BIG THANK YOU TO KAK SOPHIA for like treating us the young and sexay babes pizzas..
hees...
but seriously,ure the like the hippest and the cool babe la sey..[i meant it okae!]
thanks kaess...
wait kiter plak treat u back..just tell me wad u want..air batu?icecream?watercooler?hot water?
wahahaa...

MOrale of the story,
im so full ryte now..
n i need to do the every weekdays ESSENTIAL things..
n that is the RJ and stuffs..
irritatng motherhell kan..
okae2...
ciao!!